At times like these I really wish I still had a ‘bestfriend’. Whatever happened to our friendship? We used to talk everyday or at least twice a week. I would know what’s going on in your life and you would know about mines. Now we don’t talk anymore. Not even a text. I wish our friendship could be like how it used to be. I miss you.
It was so easy pretending to be okay when I was out with everyone. All the noise and laughter calmed every bone in my body. Once all of that stopped, my world crumbled in an instant.
I always imagined my four grandparents turning around from the front row to watch me walk down the aisle in my wedding dress alongside my Dad. A few years ago, that dream shattered as one of my grandpa had his second stroke that caused paralysis to the entire left side of his body. A couple of years after that he left us.
Now I’m faced with being forced to prepare myself to lose another very important person in my life. She raised me when my parents didn’t have the time to. She spoiled me yet taught me to be a respectable person. She’s humble yet so strong. She’s my role model, my rock, my comfort, my grandmother. She was faced breast cancer and survived it with flying colors. We thought her battle was over. But we guessed wrong. Her time with us is now limited and I can’t help but want to hold on to her and just never let go. I want her to be there for ever major chapter in my life and I can’t imagine not having her here.
As much as I want her to be with me forever, to watch me get married, start my career, and have children, I don’t want to see her suffer.
The time we have left with her will truly be cherished. I spent the most time with her when I was a child and I’ll never forget any of those moments. I love her with all of my heart.
"Even if you forget that´s not the same as if it never happened. The slate is not entirely wiped clean; you can´t reclaim the person you were beforehand; your state of innocence is not there to be retrieved."
"Selection is the very keel on which our mental ship is built. And in this case of memory its utility is obvious.
If we remembered everything, we should on most occasions be as ill off as if we remembered nothing."
"All I wanted was to receive the love I gave."
"I think perfection is ugly. I want to see scars, failure, disorder, distortion."